Pieces of Peace

The Review

2010-08-10T17:38:00.000-07:00

Call me late, call me fake , call me peace , call me at 832 275 . . .

But More About Nothing by Wale is the hottest mixtape out right now !

Today was actually the first time I ever got to sit down and really jam to this yoruba lyricist .

Wale has truly out did himself . In my opinion it wasnt really about nothing because the central theme seemed to be relationship struggles . I wish he woulda put this out about 7 months ago . It woulda really helped me through all that whining and shit I went through .

Wale's so creative . I would have never connected food and respect and I'm weird . And then how the little Seinfield clips spoke for him really showed that he did his research .

And his voice ahhhhhh weeeee ;)

And those instrumentals ! Ahh fuckkk . I love it . Especially when he tries to sing on The Cloud .

That was actually one of my favorites . The Soup, The Friends & Strangers, The Number Won, THE WAR , The Manipulation [well the second part kinda offended me] , The Ambitious Girl , The Cloud , & The Break Up .

Forgive me if I failed to list one of your favorites but then again who's opinion are you reading ? Ha . All in all, I give it 3 1/2 stars due to redundancy and over explicit lyrics . Wale has earned his keep on my baby daddy list :D

Power .

2010-08-06T16:44:00.000-07:00

I dont think Kanye's video is satanic .

If he aint put horns on the girls it woulda been a "nice" video in everybody's eyes .

Honestly I'm tired of defending him . I dont understand why all you people do is hate .

Lets all hate Lady Gaga & Nicki Minaj . Thanks .

Love&Basketball

2010-08-03T12:30:00.000-07:00

Sunday Aug 1, 2010

was the first time I saw that movie .

I liked the sex scenes alot . Cuz the plot was kinda foolish .

Fuck noo I do not want a love like that, cuz he cheated .

But Omar Epps is fine & I like fine people .

The movie is reallly reallly cute . I must admit .

Anyways More About Nothing has dropped and Twitter has gone "ham" .

I might be moving on to tumblr but I'm not completely sure .

Waiting to Exhale .

2010-07-29T22:47:00.000-07:00

All through life it's as if Ive been holding my breath when times were tough .

And letting out heavy sighs when they seemed to subside .

Yesterday . I held my breath . And I'm still holding it . And I cant exhale . Until . You . Yes, You . OR . Maybe if I . Allow ! Myself . To LET GO . Completely .

But I cant . Cuz I'm feelin you . And I'm a hopeless romantic .

And imma take this one for the team .

Cuz I guess .

I like you .

Who Got the Keys To the Jeep ?

2010-07-26T14:04:00.000-07:00

Nigga I do .

As of 9:47 a.m. I got my drivers license .

Well I got the print out but still .

& lastly I will not hoe will gas money, cuz I'm not a hoe .

Fatty Bum Bum .

2010-07-23T12:49:00.000-07:00

I went to the doctor today and they concluded I have reached my growth peak as far as height is concerned . Which makes me happy because I LOVE being 5'2 . The thing that really pissed me off was my weight . I've gained 15 pounds in one year ! I'm super scared of "Freshman Fifteen" when I go off to college because I lathered up on the weight pretty heavy as a junior . Youre probably thinking why dont you just stop typing and work out . . Nigga it is not that easy . If I could give my belly fat to my thighs and ass I WOULD in a nut drop ! I hate how the weight is being stored in parts of my face, neck, stomach and arms .

Aghhh That picture to the right is super unflattering . But Idk if Im only saying that because of the hideous make up slapped on my face . I hate make up . But I mean I feel it too . I feel slower, its kinda harder to breathe, and I just feel moreover heavier . Its a big deal not just because Im a girl but because I've wanted to gain weight for a long time, and be considered "thick" . Suggestions ?

Day Five : My Reality is Brighter Than Your Dreams Are

2010-07-23T11:24:00.001-07:00

I got your dream dude, driving in your dream car .

I've always believed that with a name like Peace, I could do just about anythinggg . I mean, what am I suppose to be . . a school teacher ? My dreams are reachable for me, and impossible for you . I simply dream for is a successful job, a healthy family, enriched life, relationship with my Savior, and true love . Its kinda funny to me how I'm quite unsure of what it is I wanna do with life . Most kids know, and have a sturdy foundational basis . Me ? I have a rough sketch . I enjoy writing, entertaining others, and selling stuff . I'm leaning towards a business mogul since I love the feeling of people needing something from me, and me being in control of the supply and demand . More than anything I want kids and I want them to be bright and healthy minds of their generation . I wanna do alot in life. Travel the world, see God's good earth . I wanna win a Noble Peace Prize, cuz how flippin cool would that be ?! I want to be known and famous, but I'm not sure if I really mean that . I definitely wanna be a household name . God. How I long to be in His circle of friends . I know, I know . The only thing standing in my way of a successful relationship with Him is me, but to me its my love for this crazy life we lead . I better find His love & I better find His heart before I die however . He has done soooo much for me, and I could only imagine being one of His close companions . Ahh, love . I thought I had it once, but I was only 14 . I dream of waking up in some fine sexy dark man's arms and looking up and him kissing my neck . I dream of him catering to me, but not so much where he becomes my bitch . I dream of him being the best passion maker ever and charming to be around . . The works . Ughh . Lastly I want to make a youtube video of "When I Was 17" and having it be a mega hit and something to look up to .

Colorado .

2010-07-21T12:46:00.000-07:00

I went to Colorado for a Young Life Camping Experience .
I found God in the Colorado mountains .
I see Jesus as one of us, just far more superior .
I experienced racism for the third time in my life .
I gave up electronic bliss for a whole week .
I had excellent food .
I battled with my health .
I went hiking up a 35OOO ft mountain .
I was forced to do an obstacle coarse the first night I arrived .
I partook in a square dance for the first time in 7 years .
I wore shorts and looked darn cuteee .
I heard uplifting messages .
I learned that I'm not the only one that hurts .
I did an evil ropes coarse .
I woke up to beautiful mountains every morning .
I went to sleep under stars so close, I pocketed some of them .
I cried on a horse as I road it on the side of a mountain .
I felt thick .
I made friends in Jesus .
I decided to make Jerry Bynum my ace (:
I did things I never knew I could .
And I enjoyed every minute of it .

Day Four : 4 Brothers

2010-07-21T12:06:00.001-07:00

I have three brothers : Oyeleye Oyetunji, Steven Oyetunji, and Michael Oyetunji .

Lee : This is my elder brother . He' s married, and use to be my favorite . But I have no favorite anymore . He's 11 years older than me so I would always look up to him partially because we looked alike, and mainly because he was so independent . He makes me laugh alot I guess . I love him even though he aint always there for me .

Steven : You can read this : http://peacewest.blogspot.com/2009/08/big-brother.html
Some things just dont deserve to be repeated twice .

Michael : This is my little brother . He's fat and ugly . And smells real bad . But I love him, regardless of how much he urks me and makes me want to vomit to noo ends .

Day Three : He got mama and daddy, in his hands

2010-07-09T10:38:00.000-07:00

Mom . My mom is a very God fearing, forceful, overprotective, African human being . Sometimes I hate her, sometimes I dont . She makes sacrifices for her kids by always putting us first . The thing is, she puts us first soo much that she often smothers us . I wish she understood that I need room to grow so I can be a woman, cuz even as I approach 17 I still feel as a child . We bump heads too much, but I think its the God in her and the rebellious spirit within me clashing . I want her to know that even though I talk stupid to her I love her . I apologize for what I put her through this past spring too . It got soo bad, she had me living with her friend . I fear that what I've sowed with her will reap something serious with my kids, so therefore I strive to change my ways .
Dad . My dad is the funny parent . That used to be my ace forreal . I member he would always tell me stories at night and lemme slap his puffed up cheeks . I was a daddy's girl, until I started puberty . He irritates me alot now and I've seen that our conversations have become more and more about my health or his favorite, the dishes beign washed . I can mostly get away with stuff with him cuz he kinda laid back but at the same time a loud mouth . I love listening to Hip Hop with him cuz he always has a smart ass african comment that makes me ROLL ! He isnt the type to say I love you, but I know he does .

Day Two : Its my fault .

2010-07-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

I think I could've blamed my mommy or daddy for not being able to go anywhere and enjoy life like any other teen . I could've blamed the boys that had put me through so much heartache . I could've blamed God for my health . But its all my fault . I shoulda pushed harder when I was younger . I shoulda been more of a girly girl, so I could now paint my nails, wear short skirts, and get long elaborate weaves free of my mom's ridicule . I shoulda wrote more so I could be more potent, I shoudla danced more so I could truly SHAKE IT FASTTT, I shoulda, I shoulda, I shoula . I shoulda learned from the first boy that hurt me, so there couldnt have been a second or thrid . Honestly, I shouldnt have put my all into every relationship, cuz when its all over what do I have left ? Yea, I couldve blamed my fear of rejection on my parents, which could explain why I rush things with guys, and why I'm one of the shyest pretty girls on this planet but I won't . I coulda took better care of my body and prayed harder so it would go . I cause my own problems and if I was emotionally stronger I couldve shook most of the shit I've gone through . Things wouldnt be soo bad . I guess I took the safe route of just blaming myself, but honestly I'll have to answer for myself on judgement day, y'know ?

Day One : If I was your best friend

2010-07-07T19:25:00.001-07:00

Ama: This guy has been my nigga since like October ? I member the first day we added each other on facebook we had a conversation like we knew each other forever . He always always always makes me laugh . And think about life . And not even to force, but he is one of the realest people I've ever met in my life . He isnt my best friend, but I'd consider him a close friend . He gives me the most spectacular advice and I run to him when things get too heavy, you smell ? Lol he's my Kpomah & I'm his Sunshine . I love you bum .

Sherif : This is my ex boyfriend turned arch nemesis turned good friend . Lol . Everybody needs to watch out -- This guy is a triple threat, even though he'd say a quintuplet . He can draw, run track, and RAP like no other . We on the phone a pretty hefty amount of time, and he inspires me and challenges my mind . We have good laughs too so thats a plus .

Keisha: This bitchh . Lol . I met her in 5th grade, were best friends in 6th, fell out shortly after, got cool in 8th, kept in touch through 10th, became cool in 11th and have been going strong ever since . She is seriously one of the brightest minds of our generation . She shines the light on the little things that make me think . We on the phone alot too, and she is just a great joy . It makes me happy knowing that she will be very successful in life and that she was my friend first lol . I love her even though she never says it back .

Joyce : Ughh . This has been my friend since August 1, 2008 . We became best friends that Christmas . Joyce is what I like to call my accountability partner . She keep me in line the best way she can, but I dont always listen . Though we slip in and out of friendship she got my back like chiropractic . I member one time I had got myself in a big Facebook scuffle, and from all the way in New York she sensed it and defended my honor . True Friend . She cool people, and I couldnt ask for a better friend . I love you (:

Faith : Yuck . This girl right chyea is my big booty hoe . Lmao . I love her alot ! We have the ugliest insiders and the loudest laughs when we're together . She just gets it, me, and everything . She is a very logical human being, which you cant find in most females . Even though she's someone I trust, and she trusts someone I dont, Imma still ride for her . You digg me ?

Chelsea Chiaghana : HATER ! lol . I forced her to be my best friend at the end of 8th grade, and now she forces me to love her . I dont give her as much attention as she deserves but thats just cuz she's always been there, has always been there, and will always be there for me . No matter what, she takes my side, and sees where I'm coming from . And if I'm in the wrong she letta nigga know . I member one time we were listening to "Gone" by Kanye West, and Consequence had said "Puff Puff pass" and we simultaneously pretended to take two hits of weed and passed it to the other and it was sooo fckin funny and unplanned . She's the best & I love her .

Ikenna Inspired .

2010-07-07T19:19:00.001-07:00

day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — the person you hate most/has caused you a lot of pain
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you didn’t meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — your crush
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — a person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — a person that you want tell everything to, but are too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror

傳授，智慧

2010-06-30T15:10:00.000-07:00

So I have a blog in english . .
and I get comments in Japanese ?
I love my Asian followers but Idk what yall are saying back to me .
Lol am I popular in Japan . . hmm how did you find me ?
I'm just wondering . .

Au Naturale .

2010-06-28T19:48:00.001-07:00

So I havent gotten a perm since Sunday, July 19, 2009
and Saturday June 26, 2010 i finally chopped off all my perm hair and now I'm natural .
I love it . Its short, its coarse, its nappy but thats how I was created .
I dont need the white man telling me I'm prettier with hair like him .
At first I wasnt gonna post up the pics, but now I will .
So judge me, think less of me, admire me, or pray for me,
WHATEVER do you, I believe I'm beautiful, and he tells me I am too so thats a plus
after this weave imma get it non-stopped twisted and moistured so itll look much much nicer
but uhm here's go nothinggg :

Fuck the lakers .

2010-06-21T18:58:00.000-07:00

Ughh I was so mad about Game 7 .
NO I am not a sports buff
YES it can be said that I just hopped on basketball because of the finals
BUT understand that sports are for everyone's viewing pleasure
SO dont give me lip unless you plan on licking .

Anyways, that game was hittin . I found myself screamin and cheerin and running close to the television, I even bet on it . Of course, at that point in time I only had a nickle, but I thought I was cute lol . Its not that I hate Kobe, its just that he's a goat . And just to be shallow yellow and purple clash . I'd say it was rigged but yall'd call me a hater, but then again who's blog is this ? THAT GAME WAS SOO FCKIN RIGGGED ! Gasol cheated . Kobe spent most time on the floor . The Refs cheated . Setting the game in LA was cheating . The Lakers suck .

But Kobe got 5 rangs so I guess thats sayign something

Happy 33rd Birthday Kanye .

2010-06-08T17:28:00.000-07:00

Kanye I'm sooo happy God blessed you with another year of life .
Find salvation, and do good . Be good (:
I love you boy . Fine asss

Answer me .

2010-06-07T17:54:00.000-07:00

Honestly why are we wasting each other's time . . .

You say you dont like me, and I know I dont need you
I only call you up at night to learn new ways to tease you
You say you wanna be done, yea well nigga, me too
But cant nobody top the shit it is that we do

All day long I swear to you I miss you
I'm dreamin bout your body baby, I just wanna kiss you
But when we on the phone all I seem to do is diss you
Then you say some thangs that make me running for some tissue

I hang up in your face just about every night
And I admit I am the cause of every single fight
I tell the girls I'm done with you, and one day I just might
Leave you for a finer nigga . . pshhh yeaaa right .

Why the fuck are we here ?! What the fuck are we doing
Am I the only life in this world you plan on ruining ?!

I aint no pussy cat, shit I am the dog
But this chasin game has been goin on tooo long

Why cant you leave me, why do I stay ?
Why do we prolong the same arguments we argue each day ?
Youre nothing I need, but you got something I want . .
Mannn fuck this shit, I'm hungry (:

Whenever . Wherever . Whatever .

2010-06-07T17:17:00.000-07:00

When I was 14 I met who I thought to be the most amazing person in the world and in my life . And I fell in love with him -- Nnamdi Nwabudike . Lol . I'm over him now so I think that's why its like 'woopty dee I put his name on my blog' . I still love him til this day and yes we've had ups and wayyy downs . So it sucks cuz he's a year older than me, which means he recently graduated . Back then I wanted to be his every and anything . I wanted to be his prom date, homecoming date, girlfriend, wife, first, last, you name it . Right now I just wanna be significant . Missed . . something .

. july nineteenth two thousand and eight .
. first date .

I'm at this place where I it feels like I'm here and he's moving, pressing forward . I have teachers, he has professors . I ride school bus, he lives on campus . I date jock, he dates college layyy-deees . I have lunch meat, he is fresh meat . Ughhh ! I cant even say I'll miss HIM because the old him was the 15/16 year old him when we first met, when I first decided he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with -- thats the one I miss . I'm gonna miss his presence I guess . Knowing he was basically in my midst, just a step ahead of me . Y'know ?

june twenty-something two thousand and nine .
. becoming cool .

Whatever you plan on doing in the future I support . I'm proud of you though . I don't really know why cuz high school aint that hard, and youre a bright boy, so congrats for sticking it out I guess. I'm just gonna miss you, and I'll forever love you, and I'll always be here for you whenever wherever whatever, and thats all I really know how to say right now .

. january seventeenth two thousand and ten .
. on oovoo, helping me get through some bad times .

. . and honestly the pictures/memories/times/laughs dont WONT stop here (:

Maximizing my time .

2010-06-05T13:31:00.000-07:00

So tis summer 2O1O
one of the most anticipated summers of my life .
partly because i need a vacation, and solely because i hate work, authority, and people . Anyways Day One of summer I got a job ! Its at this telephone place, so I'll basically be harassing the nation making political and medical survey calls, and yall will most likely hang up in my face, but its all good cuz Im getting paid . Big ups to ALM ! I love you guys (:

I also won WDYM's poetry contest . Yaayyy meee ! I win a free shirt form AJ Gibbson's clothing line WDYM ! I promise I'm putting that on my resume .

Day Two of Summer I took the SATs today . In my opinion it was easy but we'll see when I get that 24OO cuz you know I'm not allowed to talk about it so I'll leave it at that . I also registered for summer school so I guess I'm just progressing through life .

Power .

2010-05-29T13:51:00.000-07:00

. . Mo'fuckka we rollin !
That's Kanye's first single off the conclusion of the Graduation Series, Good Ass Job Album .
Idgaf if I'm late up on my Kanye, but this song is fire !
Kanye is "back" and finna shit on everybody who ever doubted him after speaking out against a bitch made country bumpkin .

HA ! The thing that really got me is that this is proof that me and Kanye are on the same wave length of thought . As some of you know, I rap, or atleast I try to .
Anyways on my first freestyle I said "If you think you can, its an obama-nation" [abomination]
And my nigga Kanye said "They said I was the abomination of obama's nation"

When you listen to the song wait til 3:19 when the beat, tempo, melody, changes .
I kid you not it does shit to me its crazyyy . Like its soo crazy beautiful sounding .

I dont need yo pussy, bitch I'm on my own dick ! I fckinnnnn love this guyyy <3

Hire me .

2010-05-29T09:00:00.001-07:00

I need a job .
I applied for Subway, Sonic, Burger King, Shipleys, and the Dollar Store .
Yea . . I'm that desperate . If push comes to force, you will see me at Finger Licking . If force comes push I will drive an icecream truck, cuz honestly money is tight .
If you at all have any hook ups or inside tips let me know now .

There is sooo much I need to buy and quite a few people I need to pay back . But mainly I just want to flaunt the fact that my income is shitting on yours . And being employed will be good for me cuz I wont have to form all these ludicrous thoughts in my head and will learn structure and responsibility . I just need a steady income .

Aghhhh . I'm off to job haunt .

And you dont want none, like I was a fat chick .

2010-05-27T17:29:00.000-07:00

I'm finna be a mother flippin senior !
Which means Baby Peace is almost off to college .
This year has been AMAZING, HORRIBLE, EYE-OPENING, FUN, POSITIVE, NEGATIVE . .
too much shit from losing vicky as a friend, to dating an asshole, to mrs. garcia fucking a student, to tito and melonie, to my cell phone getting stolen twice within 2 weeks, to the loss of our beloved tobi, to nigeria losing and regaining a president, to beautiful proms, to LS spreading, to the success of AJ's shirts, to the migration of our senior friends from high school to college . . this year had it all .

When I am a senior I want to do it all,
I wanna rule Hastings .
But we'll just have to wait and see, see and wait byeeee (:

It aint where he's at, its where he wanna be

2010-05-27T17:13:00.000-07:00

Ladies !
Ughhh FUCK THESE NIGGAS . they suck and they are a waste of time and energy .
If a nigga makes anything clear to you, run with it, and stick with it .
Dont ever feel like you can change him, not that you cant,
but why would you wanna be with an inconsistent nigga who changes up, nahhmean ?

I guess this is where I share my story,
not really a sob story, more of a, ive learned from my shit story .
So after my first love it took me a while to really really give my all to someone else and then I met my ex . and it was cool .
we hit it off . messed around . fell out . fell in . went out . fucked around . then he dumped me .

For a long time I still couldnt get over him, I would still call attention to our anniversaries and tell myself "this woulda been so and so amount of months"
For a long time I blamed myself for the break up . For a long time I would beat my self up over it . Writing about it . For a longer time I pestered my friends in "What shall I do" and long talks about him .

I wasted so much of my life, and yea I admit I coulda prevented the whole thing but thats life . Yesterday I found out he fucked another bitch a month after he broke up with me . That hurt . I mean dont get me wrong I got play that same month but never sex, so to me, he is and will forever be in the wrong .

Its worse that I allowed him to play me and then with my emotions . I looked in the mirror which led me to my soul, which allowed me to call out to my depths and speak to my inner being . I told myself I didnt deserve it and that it was his loss . I mean, it was . I baked for him, cared for him, walked him to class - - you name it, I did it . Aghhh anyways if he aint wanna be here with me, obviously he wants to be with trash . Because he's trash .

You're the one for me

2010-05-12T17:02:00.000-07:00

i imagine how we could be and i smile .
i miss you too flippin much & i hope you atleast return that to me
actually i lied return more than you ever gave .
that is all <3

I wanna be MADE

2010-04-24T19:44:00.000-07:00

I promise you, Ive always fantisized about it .
God has worked in my favor . . Mtv's MADE is coming to MY school .
When I found out I was overwhelemed and greedy .
This was/is my moment . I immediately grabbed the application form and DREAMED .

Noone can tell me that isn;t my spot .
Noone can tell ne that they CANT see me up there .
Noone but God . .

This oppurtunity beongs to me .
I can see me, I can hear me on the voice overs,
its just really cool .
Ofcourse imma be transformed into a rapper .
I ask for everyone to pray for me .
I'm already 1 out of 72 hopefuls
so I just hope I'm the last one left standing .
I'm being as allusive as I can, because I wont my segment on MADE to speak for itsself lol .

I wont limit myself, because I just feel its for me .
Yes I know, I'm not ugly or lame,
however other things qualify me .

Well yea it goes up May 4th and 5th :DDDDD

Cleaning Out My Closet .

2010-04-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

Im sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you .

I moved back in with my parents .
It was involuntray .
As in, I came home Friday, and my guardian
had packed all my bags, and folded my blankets .
And when we met face to face, demanded her key back .
Now Sunday I tld my parents I hated them forever,
but as we've come to find out, nothin is forever with children .
I'm very happt now .

After all I GOT MY CELL PHONE BACK !
And as I've been saying, I do not give a fuck where I lay my head at night
or whom I wake up to, as long as my cell phone is charging beside my nose .

Now I understand, this is a brief and weak blog of the things that have gone on,
however, I am writing a book, and you can know everything that happens and more .
So be on the look out . I'll be on Tyra, Oprah (if she's still running), and even South Park . . speaking of which . .
tune in to my next blog . . CRAZY NEWS !

Endless blabber .

2010-04-07T20:44:00.000-07:00

I dont really have any thoughts to convey but I feel it owed to you to convey something . Life definetly has its ups and downs, and recently I felt like ending it . Nothing serious ; just unhappy, the usual . I hate not getting my way because I'm mega childish . Blahhh . I noted that I am a BIG attention whore but in any sense I deserve it . & also that I have ultra weak body language . I want a boyfriend, but I say that in just about every post lol . My hands are really rough right now becuase I get sooooo much money . I think I'm a tree because money sprouts out of my pockets and bra and wallet and purse zippers by the bundles . . money grows on me . It might be the root of all evil, but I tithe faithfully soooooooo mazzletauf . [see i'm childish] My parents dont want me back so I'm basically stuck living here . The hardest thing about pride is swallowing it . . I've never been a big fan of swallowing . By the by, I'm an interesting character and though I point out and highlight all my fans and groupies, I just may be my biggest fan . Cool .

6 YEARS .

2010-03-30T17:36:00.000-07:00

its been six years, and im still here .

Stop Cryin Over Breast Milk

2010-03-23T13:56:00.000-07:00

im not crying over petty shit anymore
cuz its come to my attention that i seemm "weak"
anyways im fat & everyone thinks im pregnant
& im sad cuz it hurts replying "im still a virgin"
but aghhh ill just work out even though if makes me mad as fuck .
blahhh .

goodNEWS

2010-03-19T21:23:00.000-07:00

good news ;
Jesus was born
good news
he died on the cross
good news ;
he's coming back sooon

so yahh i finsihed my first song
its raw . like the word play is amazing .
& i have God & Sherif to thank for that <3
love them boys . Ama helped ALOT too
but I aint finna give shout outs here :p
but uhm yeaa imma try to have it up REAL soon
(:

PSA

2010-03-12T14:47:00.000-08:00

i go to school everyday,
and i look around and see all these fugly couples .
i see mix-matched couples,
bi-racial couples,
struggling couples,
cakin couples,
and couples that need to be dismantled .
WHERE THE FUCK IS MY NIGGA AT ?
like times are TOUGH if you know what my hormones are saying,
i want a nigga like woahhhh
and idk if its even a relationship im seeking,
or just to get my cat lilcked, lmao,
or just to have someone to get cakey with .
im peacewest, imma mofckkin celebrity,
and i wont say im a dime, because im PRICELESS,
but im really tryna figure out why im single,
cuz my personality aint fucked . . i hope .
but yea . . get at me .

If home is where the heart is

2010-03-08T17:48:00.000-08:00

If home is where the heart,then I'm homeless
cuz I left my fucking feelings in the womb
anyways . .

So my parents went to Nigeria February 6th
meaning my little brother and I had to stay with a friend .
It was cool I guess, though I got into minor trouble here and there .
When my parents came back they came and got my little brother and left me . .
laugh . okay are you done ?
My guardian tells me its becuase I am on the path to destruction
and her and my parents are tyring to save me from myself :/
okayyyyy . She then tells me I will leave when my behavior changes .
Then yesterday at breakfast [yupp we eat as a family]
she breaks it down, that I will be staying there til I graduate .
Guys that is 15 months from now :OO
Do my parents hate me ? Did they give up on me ?
IDK . I cannot tell a lie,
I AM happier here, it's just kinda pathetic on my parents part if you ask me .
But I will be given more freedom here, and I guys for the first time in life
I think I can be stabally at peace . . as long as I play my cards right .

But imma be real,
when I become famous this will make a great story . .
I'm just saying .

Okay its like this . .

2010-03-08T13:45:00.000-08:00

I never stopped liking you, I never stopped caring
I never stopped focusing on what it is you were wearin
I wanna be with you, but I guess I understand
That even though im ready, you are not yet a man
Hell nahh I aint love you, but it damn sure seems
that i musta felt somethin since you all up in my dreams
At night I wanna speak to you,
And have us reconnect
But you be on some other shit,
And i aint down for that neglect .
I could middle finger you altogether
But then what will it prove ?
That i can be all big and bad,
Though tracking your every move ?
I made you a bracelet
But then i broke the string
You and i came and went
Like autumn, winter, spring
Hoping we can be friends
Without that awkward shiiit
I wanna be that girl
That you will never forget
Cuz honestly i see that you'll always have my eye
Until of course,
Im swept up by a more deserving guy . .

Intake .

2010-03-04T13:40:00.000-08:00

have any of yall ever thought about all the fatty shit you eat ?
last tuesday or something, i forget, i found out
that chips, donuts, and french fries are the WORST food for your heart
& i really want to be there for my kids
so i kinda vow to give em up .
understand, its very hard to just quit something youre use to
whether it be a boyfriend you cared for so much or living in YOUR house,
haha im shooting slugs, but anyways i dont want to eat hamburgers either
or any animal on four legs . or anything with trans fat or disgusting sugar shit
AND then ill have to work out more :(
ill hate it now, but ill be able to love my kids then (:

Updates

2010-03-04T13:09:00.000-08:00

its been forever or a week .
sooo today would've been two months .
yes i know, i should stop dwellin in the past
but this is my life, and youre reading it :p
alright so this rapping thing may REALLY be happening
im talkin like i might get a record deal !
and here i am simply thinking im joining a group lol
after this blog and another and maybe another
imma go write a dope ass song about high school --
hoping to have it up for yall later .
uhmmm this week was the ELA TAKS test & two forced ass benchmark tests
i ate that english taks like candy
in all seriousness that was the easiest thing in the world
and a true insult to my intelligence
today during the science benchmark
i took a sex survey for kicks
& we discussed jay z's involvement in the illuminati
and this sis news to me, but supposedly kanye directed
that oh so satanic "on to the next" video
broo if this is true i dont know if i cna fuck with kanye
ughh what will become of me ?!
im peace west !
lol imma kill the dramatics .
uhm my parents came back from naija
but they dont want me livign with them
so they took my brother from where they left us
and left me here lol
but its all good, it makes my story that much more interesting
wacka flacka

Oh you got black mail, well my black mail is BLACKER than your black mail

2010-02-27T08:02:00.000-08:00

To my hoe of nearly two years,

Its been fun . Real fun . You used me, played me, made me cry, want to die, stressed me out, but nonetheless happy . I begrudged and lusted you with everything within me and I'm proud that you NOOO longer phase me . Thursday was the straw that broke that damn camel's back and im overjoyed -- no really I am :)

July 19, 2008 you DID infact take something from me, which haunted me all up until Thursday February 25, 2010 . Though it took me nearly two years to get mine, best believe I got it . And I took it with no remorse and in the worst manner . And that prolly angered you into the decision you made on facebook, which by the way was childish . You thought you had the upper hand but you were just my bobble head . I beat you at your own game - - Hate the game, resent the player . You never deserved the most treasured part of me, becuase when I offered, you didnt even want all of me . But anyways, fuck you . I saw so much of you that you are now the biggest abhorrence in my life .

Anything you feel necessary to say, say . I give no fucks about your feelings and I will cut you, skin you alive, and pick you apart with my words . Don't believe me ? TRY ME . I can honestly say I hoed the fuck out of you, and I love it. So if you see me in the streets, nigga you dont know me ;)

Sincerely,
The total package ; the one who got away ; the one who saw through your bullshit ; the one that gave up loving you ; the one who woulda held you down ; the one that put up with you ; the one that WANTED to ALWAYS be there ; the "baddest bitch" ; the girl who is now stronger ; and above all, the one who is on to bigger and better dicks :DDDD

[quote me on that one]

Long overdue but worth the wait .

2010-02-23T17:32:00.000-08:00

KANYE WEST "Coldest Winter" Directed by: NABIL "ITUNES link below" from nabil elderkin on Vimeo.

kinda weird .
you gotta watch it a couple times to understand .
i wont insult yoour intelligence by trying to explain kanye's mind .
however, i will say, it wasnt exactly what i pictured the video to be .
i still like it . especially the ending .
but since the song is about his mom, i wish he did it about her .

Wish I was Jigga man ; carefree living

2010-02-23T17:05:00.000-08:00

im like hella horny for no reason at all .
and its like a very persistent ordeal that i face daily .
so from now on :

i am on pimp mode .

YES . i will feel bad .
YES . i will feel empty .
YES . i will judge myself .
YES . i am basically more-or-less exploiting myself .

but shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit
play like a nigga or get hoed like a bitch .

boys pimp with no remorse, i think PEACE can handle it .
so with that ill end with "ladies is pimps too, go on and pimp dem bwahhhs [boys]"

Kanye West gives me orgasms

2010-02-17T13:06:00.000-08:00

He's in Houstonnn !
& WHEN I see him, WE'RE FUCKINGGG !

I dont front and I dont go backwards

2010-02-17T12:56:00.000-08:00

The new "swag" is being "real"
EVERYBODY in the westtttt is obsessed with it .
bout time we openly crucified farudulence .
Alot of people tell me I'm real, and I wont lie,
I am . Speaking of which, because I am often told that I am soo real,
imma up it a notch . imma be REAL as FUCK .
as in no more lying . EVER .
you only lie to those you fear .
The ONLY person you should fear is God ; but even then, you cant lie to GOD .
authority [parents, teachers, government] you should respect, not bite your tongue for . right has no face, so if an adult is in the wrong, i will respect them, but never lie or back down to what I believe .
as far as my peers, if i dont like your hair, smell, clothing, face . .
ill let you know . if asked of course .
there's a thick line between being real, and being trifling .
no matter the consequence, imma continue to be real .
another thing, i hate when people co-side with what someone else is saying just to go along with the ride .
STOPPPP ! ughhh anyways,
this will help me spiritually too,
so i dont know how to end this and i have to pee, so byyyyeee (:

Some niggas money is homo, its hard to get straight

2010-02-17T12:36:00.000-08:00

i am definetly fckin with the gayest form of income
so i now sell cupcakes/cake at school
lol . this is actually alot worse than selling candy
cuz im like BAKING and ICING and FREAKIN SELLIN CUPCAKES lmfaooo .

onto other things, i am like soo super serious about wanting to be a rapper
or atleast making a couple songs .
have you ever listened to "Say Something" by Drake
or "Bittersweet" by Kanye West, and hear the hook
and say "Fuckk mannn ! This is my life, why didnt I say this first?"
Thats me times 190893839 .
I wont lie, Chris Agboola did inspire me after I heard his song "Did You Wrong" .
I got soo much to say that its only right that I release it within music
Itll also do wonders for my pride and integrity
I just have to nip my pesky shyness and tendacy to overthink in a bud, and i gottt this broo

lastly im singleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
holller ;)

its your world baby, im just livng it

2010-02-13T11:29:00.000-08:00

& i wish you the best, i guess . .

2010-02-13T10:05:00.000-08:00

if the best was peace, and you separated yourself from the best peace of mind you couldve ever recieved, then the best shouldnt be left for you . goodbye .

Life is like a box of chocolates on VALENTINES DAY, never know who's gonna eat you out .

2010-02-13T09:53:00.001-08:00

i hear : tik tok by ke$ha
i see : america's best dance crew season 5 east regionals

so this year, like last year
im valentine-less & i could give a fork less
the hardest thing about this holiday,
at least for me right now, is being soo easily aroused
and having my ex looking so good :/
steady pondering what couldve been, what shouldve been
nahhmean ?
ehh . .prolly not .
this holiday mocks those who have not,
& praises those who do .
couple niggas making it clear they wanna be more than friends
but if you read my "I can dream, can't I ?" blog
youll see my standards .
ahh well, im fckin cute .
care to disagree ?

one monthh ; february 4th

2010-02-11T16:39:00.000-08:00

& im still on top

time is running out, please dont make me wait . .

2010-02-06T08:09:00.000-08:00

guysss .
in one hour my parents are heading off to the airport .
ive been without them before, but idk,
i must say i WILL miss them .
& with that whole nigerian terrorist thing,
im even more scared . i dont want ANYTHING bad to happen, obviously
& im praying hard, so pray with me .
but if you notice bad things happen on the 25ths
[james brown died december 25th
michael jackson died june 25th
left eye died august 25th
aaliyah died april 25th ?]
& then again on odd days
september 11th, Holocaust of 1945, the bad break up of january 13 . .
ehh things of that nature .
so i do feel a breeze of relief knowing that today is Febuary [2nd month] 6th [even day] 2O1O [even year]
i know i shouldnt put my faith in numbers
but i do kinda feel God's letting my mind dwell on this
in order to calm me down .
ughhh well in three weeks, they WILL come back safer than they left
& ill be soooo thankful .
but you'll have to excuse me, i have to go tell em i love them <3
oh and btw im learning to control my emotions better (:

she gotta silicon booooty !

2010-02-06T08:00:00.000-08:00

i love this woman .
and idgaf what nobody says
but i look like her .
uncorrect me if im wrong, but what i say goes .

I Won't .

2010-02-05T17:08:00.000-08:00

I've decided not to force anyone to stay in my life anymore
And I too will not fight to stay in anyone's life .
My friendship is evident; if i say I'm your friend, then I am .
I'm not two faced so if I can atleast respect you enough to not sneak up on you with that change shit, respect me too .
I know I give people too many chances, and I dont think God will punish me for doing whats best for me . See, at the end of the night I lay down with myself, I wake up to myself, and I gotta do for myself . If I'm steady worried boutchu, who's worried bout me ? Oooh, and Im eating shit up too . Im not exactly gonna take people's shit, but I wont give them the satisfaction of letting them know they affect me . And I;m not telling anybody specific burdens weighing heavy on my heart just cuz . .

how much they hate us, very . kiss girls like katy perry .

2010-02-05T16:17:00.000-08:00

so my parents are going to nigeria tomorrow
& i get to stay with a friend
im happy that its not the same girl from last time
HOWEVER, im expecting the worst, hoping for the best
& i dont wanna get too comfortable at someone else's house .
i dont know if ill miss my parents
cuz right now theyre trippin hard
ontop of that i really dislike my brother and his wife
but theyre my go to people, if i need money and am afraid to ask my friends mom
whatever . its me and God til the end .

White tee ; b-ball shorts ; chillin wit no lotion on . Thats when he's the sexiest and no he do not take it wrong .

2010-02-03T13:26:00.000-08:00

I am soooo fckin thirsy if you catch my drift .
Parched pussy in need of that dasani dick . lmfaoooo
thats going on my mixtape .

Lust for Life .

2010-02-03T13:20:00.000-08:00

im pretty sure this is all people see when they look at me .
most times people see them THEN me .
today some boy said " you love to show off your tities"
and he's right . if you got it flaunt it .
but maybe i flaunt them toooooo much cuz i know, thats at least one thing i have goin for me :/
but im not hiding behind my breast though .
they just stick out farther than anything else lol .
i just wish you lusted my dry humor & personality more than my lotioned boobs .
i really feel if you actually got to know me,
you'd fall more in love with my interior than exterior :)

i must blog in the moment

2010-02-01T23:46:00.000-08:00

3 am yesterday morning i was crying my eyeballs red ;
screaming my lungs sore ; stressing my fragile mind ;

but now im giddy .

i laughed for an hour straight
i baked sweet cupcakes, i sang !
in this instance i control my emotions
its crazy nice .
i pray itll last forever
but if it doesnt i have the satisfaction of knowing that in this moment i went for my mine and it payed off .
this is my high .

i be high_kid cudi

2010-02-01T23:36:00.001-08:00

Intro:
(bum ba ba bum)
(Midwest action)
uh, yo
uh, ello'!
yeah mhm, mhm
dr. genius,hey

Verse 1:
I be high, when i split a dutch and fill it up
I be high, when i get my money doubled up
I be high, when a model wanna let me cut
I be high, when i be shinin' cause my diamonds blush
I be low, when a nigga cant get away
I be low, when i cant seem to make a way
I be low, when i cant even feed myself
I be low, when i realize im by myself
but I be high, when i shopping for expensive clothes
I be high, when i get what i couldn't before
I be high, in the club while poppin bub
I be high, when im cruisin sitting on them doubs
but I be low, after shows in my dressing room
I be low, when i see that im a different dude
I be low, on the plane lookin at the sky
I be low, but my highs keep me really ?tight?

Chorus:
I be high, then i be low
I be low, then i be high
Its like a brought a knife to a gun fight
But i be cool, this the story of my life
I be high, then i be low
I be low, then i be high
Its like a brought a knife to a gun fight
no need to worry , this the story of my life

Verse 2:
I be low, when i gotta get ready for work
I be low, cause after bills, my pockets be hurt
I be low, when i cant take a girl out
I be low, cause they cant even figure me out
But i be high, when the ?phoney? chicks some me love
caus in my mind i read them, but i dont give a fuck
I be high, when a n*ggar get attention
I be high, when your girl catch feelings
Then i be low, when i go into that empty space
I be low, when im looking at a stressed face
I be low, because my brother facing hard time
And i be low, cause my n*ggar lying close behind
Then im high, when i know the places we can go
I be high, when i think what the future holds
I be high, when she asks for my room number
I be high, but a my low keeps a n*ggar humble

Chorus:
I be high, then i be low
I be low, then i be high
Its like a brought a knife to a gun fight
But i be cool, this the story of my life
I be high, then i be low
I be low, then i be high
Its like a brought a knife to a gun fight
no need to worry , this the story of my life

Verse 3:
I was high, when the label said that i was dope
I was high, in my eyes cause i had hope
I was high, when first had the taste of love
I was high, when i left the city i was from
And i was low, when i had a recent heart break
I was low, cause i truly though i had it made
I was low, when i lost her over silliness
I was low, cause she twisted what my words meant
But i was high, when i finally had the chance to see
everything thats pretty aint' always good for me
I was high, when she first said i like you
man, i must be too high to even write dude
and these things show you growth
some niggas show you a little but i show you the most
highs and lows, and succeed for sho
the only thing left to do is to say a toast, cause...

Chorus:
I be high, then i be low
I be low, then i be high
Its like a brought a knife to a gun fight
But i be cool, this the story of my life
I be high, then i be low
I be low, then i be high
Its like a brought a knife to a gun fight
no need to worry , this the story of my life

now wont you please say scotty lord,
help me please, yeah, help me please
now wont you please say scotty lord,
wont you please, god, help me please

Seasonals .

2010-01-31T18:11:00.001-08:00

seasonals : a "friend" who you will soon cut loose .
the world is full of them .

Disturbia .

2010-01-31T15:21:00.000-08:00

i need therapy, counseling, and moreover prayer .

january 26th - day 22

2010-01-26T20:19:00.000-08:00

it woulda been the longest tie EVER today .
i would have finally surpassed the goal ive for sooo long wanted to .
we would made one month next thursday :/
ughhh . i miss you but you aint even go nowhere & that sucks
& i hate how helpless i feel
because in this situation the ball is in your court .
yet i know you werent good for me,
but moving on is a bitch seeing as how i wasnt mentally prepared for it
tonight im gonna find some way to make it without you .
have you ever tried sleepin wit a . . even though my heart aint broke :p

I see you baby, shakin dat ass . (_|_) (_/_) (_\_) (_|_) (_/_) (_\_)

2010-01-25T13:56:00.000-08:00

Sooo I gave peacewest.blogspot.com a "makeover"
its nothing spectacular at all,
but i like the colors,
and the randomness of my blog titles .

there is soo much potential for me in life right now
im on the newspaper staff at schoool,
ive been asked personally to designa kid friendly school website
which will automatically make me cool with the administration
which means they will clit wet me til college (:
uhm im running for presdient, but this time im actually gonna win
and then im gonna take over hastings, and then the entertainment industry .
you ready ?

relax your mind, lay back and groove wit mine

2010-01-25T13:46:00.000-08:00

my new outlook on life is immaculable
imma be soo chill youll think im on drugs
imma smile soo much you'd swear i was a model
imma be soo active, you'd think i was having sex
imma be sooo real, you'll call me the realest
imma be soo me, you'd want to ride clit
this is 2010
time to do for myself
time to party & bullshit
time to work on getting famous

when i tell you im taking over hastings,
that school will be mine .

i am on a pedestal and only God can knock me down .

check my tag .

2010-01-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

I don't know if you smell it, but I reek success .
So imma give all of you a chance to say when I become famous
"I know her, we use to talk all the time" .
No cocky stuff, infact, I'm even humble, because I want to get to know you
So you can feel a close relationship to a celebrity in a couple years .

add me on ooVoo : peacewest
drop some questions on formspring : peacewest
add me on facebook : Peace West
send me an e-mail : peace_west@yahoo.com

DO WHATEVER YOU FEEL BEST GUYSSS
just keep it one hunnit witchur comemnts and questions, etc .

I can dream, cant I ?

2010-01-23T11:06:00.000-08:00

i want a boy who loves and fears the Lord . i want a boy to correct me when i'm doing wrong . i want a boy with a big ego . i want a boy who everyone wants, but only i can get . i want a boy to respect me . i want a boy who is a virgin . i want a boy to talk shit with me for hours, and then cake with me for more . i want a boy with younger siblings . i want a boy who smiles a decent amount of times, but more with me . i want a boy to make me sing "my whole life has changed . since you came in . . " and mean it, for the first time . i want a boy who i can bake for . i want a boy who seems to himself, but isnt when he;s with me . i want a boy who dresses nice. i want a boy who's darker than me . i want a boy who smells good all the time . i want a boy who isnt overly cakey . i want a boy who doesnt mind doing what i want, but still asserts his beliefs . i want a boy to love me for me . i want a boy who wont get jealous of kanye west . i want a boy who is REAL ! i want a boy who makes me feel lucky to be with him . i want a boy who wont leave me after 3 weeks, 17 days, 9 days . . i want a boy who wont rush me into anything . i want a boy who knows how to have fun . i want a boy who wouldnt mind celebrating anniversaries . i want a boy who's cute, nicely built, with nice hair . i want a boy who has a special talent . i want a boy who can make me happy . i want a boy who wants me to meet his family . i want a boy who will sing to me if i ask him late at night on the phone . i wnat a boy who would ride for me, since i would ride for him . i want a boy who inspires me . i want a boy who is going somehwere in life . i want a boy to love my every curve, or non curve . i want a boy who everyone respects, admires, and emulates . i want a boy who makes me think about life . i want a boy who can make me LAUGH . i want a boy who will NEVER make me cry . i want a boy to make me feel like all the failed relationships ive ever had were worth it . i want a boy who can look me in the eyes for hours . i want a boy who can drive with a car and job . i want a boy who's interested in sports . i want a boy who will camera slut with me . i want a boy who can pronounce my last name . i want a boy who will call me at any hour of the day . i want a boy who i can celebrate the holidays with . i want a boy who is also my best friend . i want a boy to spoil me within reason . i want a boy who could cheer me up . i want a boy with common sense . i want a boy who balances me out . i want a boy to call me a cute pet name . i want a boy i can take to church . i want a boy who will miss me if im gone, even for a second . i want a boy who will bite me . i want a boy who i can do anything with/around . i want a boy who makes me comfortable just being me . i want a boy who will gimme the best advice . i want a boy who always speaks his mind . i want a boy who i will gladly want to submit to . i want a boy who is worth my time . i want a boy who has goals as cruicial as mine . i want a boy who has a story to tell . i want a boy who will watch movies with me for hourssss . i want a boy to just cuddle with . i want a boy to listen to me . i want a boy to want me to give him a massage . i want a boy who'd surprise me with gifts every now and again . i want a boy who acutally thinks with the head on his shoulders . i want a boy to pray with . i want a boy who can fight . i want a boy who will catch me when i fall . i want a boy who will hold my hand anywhere . i want a boy to put his arm around me to show he made the best decision in the world . i want a boy to drive and hold my hand . i want a boy to call me fat when i eat . i want a boy i can work out with . i want a boy to tease me . i want a boy who i cant wait to talk to . i want a boy to give me as much attention as i'd give him . i want a boy to kiss me when i least expect it . i want a boy who takes an interest in me . i want a boy to be affected my our time shared .

& with all these wants, it appears, i need a man . my dream man <3

Baby be Mine_Michael Jackson

2010-01-22T18:54:00.000-08:00

Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey, Heyyy Dont Say You Will

2010-01-21T16:30:00.000-08:00

VH1 KanYe West's Storytellers is on shelves !!

I hear its like 7O minutes of pure orgasmic bliss ;)

Its the uncut version of all the shit they shoulda shown -

meaning, the completion of the Say You Will story .

He also does Paranoid, Homecoming, and Streetlights .

AND it comes with a CD of the storytellers-a-vized songs

ANDDDD it comes with a Q & A which Kanye completely owns

I am bugging out mannnggg . Partly because its only $15 !

But FULLY because I dont have to pay for it .

Two real ass niggas gettin it for me .

whoooooot whooooooot ! Kanye x 2 :D

& I be feelin myself, call it masterbation .

2010-01-20T20:04:00.000-08:00

Pride

Energy

African

Creative

Easy to fall in love with

All I Do is Think of You_B5

2010-01-19T18:13:00.000-08:00

& thats where you fucked up .
im no relationship expert . AT ALL .
infact, my longest was three weeks . SMH .
but hmm lemme spit some dope shit .

how i see it, anyone can do relationships . anyone .
no matter if you've never been in one, arent use to em, or are scared .
its not that hard . if you & that someone decide yall want to make it work, it will work, simple as that . yes, of course there will be trials and tribulations, but thats where strength comes in . if yall can let he say she say, missed calls, lack of attention, and other fag things get to you, you suck .

secondly, you have to know who you are before getting into a relationship . i'd start by writing down traits about yourself that you like, and things you do that make you, you . so that way if God forbid, yall are to break up, you can go back to doing you . its easy to be a mopey bitch once you get dumped, but that wont make the person want you back . to me, that'd even be insulting to see someone pick up the pieces to their life so quickly, when i assumed breaking up with them would completely shatter them .

compromise . do not ever compromise your beliefs if you are in the quick sand of morally based thinking . things such as sex, religion, and drugs, should never be one that you easily give into . not even to push my beliefs but the only exception is if theyre tryna make you christian, other than that, stand your ground . if you want to wait til marriage, then it goes down in about 7 plus years . i wont even touch on drugs cuz thats obvious . but back to sex . dont do anything you even think you think you think you will regret . EVER . because you will . trust me .

which brings me to timelines . i cannot map out when your first kiss should be, when you should start dating, etc. etc . thats all on you . but ask yourself before you do anything, does this make sense ? to have sex with someone who doesnt even know your last name ? to do such and such in a rush and rush manner ? WHAT ARE YOU DOINGGGG ?! if this person is the one, or atleast holds some amount of self respect for you, they will wait . & never beg .

aghhh . do not make this person your number one priority . because when/if they leave, you will feel like poop . "God takes away that which you put in front of HIM . " If you value this person enough youll begin to map out your priorities and keep things straight . God first of course .

patience is a virtue . be patient with them . give them time to call , think, heal, breathe, SLEEP ! things happen ; they arent always cheating . & more over dont rush into anything, the right one will come along . i cant tell you when, im still waiting . .

choose wisely . what you think is the best is nothing compared to what God has in store for you, so hmm i guess that goes back to being patient . however, if you keep getting red flags, then maybe theyre not it . .

well, its crazy, because this was for your benefit, but here i am nodding my head, like yupp this is where i struggled and this is how imma fix em . maybe im wrong . idgaf . i like it . byeee .

They say Peace why yoou soo real ? Cuz when I was a baby I was breast fed the truth

2010-01-18T10:43:00.001-08:00

i know who i am, and nothing can shake me
i would be a pussy, if i'd let you hoes break me
i need no one in my life who would ever forsake me
if you as real as me then please come take me

All The Things I Should've Said . .

2010-01-16T12:49:00.000-08:00

I dont fully understand your decision . But I partially accept it . I know now that the seperation could've been alot worse, and hurt wayy more in the process, and for that I'm at least bit thankful . I want you to know that eveyrthing I've ever said I meant ; everything . All accept the "I want to break up"s and the "I hate you"s . What I really meant to say was, "Dont ever leave me" and "I want to be with you long enough to possibly love you" . I know you werent use to it all . I know. I imagine you were scared, and only did it because you wanted to make me happy . And only did it because you didnt want to see me sad in the long run . But I've already cried, and slightly died on the inside so I guess EPIC FAIL is a fair phrase to use at this junction in life . .

And I dont even wanna come off as one of those psychotic stupid crazy stalker I dont feel I can ever get over you type weak ass bitches, cuz im not . I just see now that I put my everything into you and it came up short . That fuckin suckss . I swear I would ride for, grind for you, make time for you, care for you, be there for you, I wanted to be that chick . . That chick to hold you down, no matter what . That chick to make you feel like, hmm maybe realtionships arent the devil, and maybe this chick is my angel . That was me . But its not your fault . This is the third time that I've had to experience something like this, and though you hurt me the most, I still want you . .

I wanna go back to them better times where you were my dork and I was your geek . 'Member I was Ike and you were Tina ? Or was I Tina ? 'Member when we use to say Get the Fuck, and Come the Fuck . Or was it Cum the fuck ? 'Member when you were Aristotle, and I, Socrates ? 'Member that time we stayed up til 7:32 am ? 9:14 am ? 'Member that time we both wore black ? 'Member all those times I would overly feed you cupcakes and cookies and shit ? 'Member all those walks we took ; we walked everywhere huh ? 'Member how I hated so much that you could read me like a book? 'Member how I use to purposely walk slanted so I would run into you and hit you with my chest ? 'Member our first conversation . . how about our last ? 'Member all them times you made me laugh and all them times you would front like I didnt make you laugh ? 'Member when we kissed in the snow ? 'Member when we use to hold pinkies ? 'Member how I was always hesitant to tell you how I felt about something but once I did, I couldnt shut up ? 'Member our first heart to heart ? 'Member you hated when I called you baby ? 'Member when I use to be deathly afraid of lookin you in your eyes ? 'Member No Ceilings ? 'Member when I said that line about FillUpBanks & I was sooo hood wit it ? 'Member when I told you, when you hold me I feel the safest ? 'Member, December 7th wayy early in the morning when you promised to never hurt me ? Well do you ? I do . .

This cant even justify how much I miss you . And everything listed above . But its crazy how a lil invested time can cause so much attachmentttt . I dont know . If everything happens for a reason, I am more than curious to know how this will all pan out . More than anything I wanna be with you, but I understand the ball's in your court, and there's nothing I can do about it . I see now that there's nothing I can do, to allow you to see I have your best interest at heart and I'd never wrong you . Hmm, well maybe you're moreso worried aobut harming me . Too late . I cant exactly wish you all the best in life, cuz you're gonna get it regardless . But ughhhh . . Im done : meat riding and moping . And its sad cuz I know there's way more I wanna say, but Im not laying down my pride ; not again at least . But you know me, you know what I want, so yeaaa . . Yea, Im done . .

People actually read this shit ?

2010-01-12T18:24:00.000-08:00

So its come to my attention that i havent been laboring in vain .
People actually come to peacewest.blogspot.com . cool .
i apologize for the crap ive been posting up lately, and for the crap i havent
too much has changed and i dont even know where to begin .
i mean how did peace west's 2OO9 year end ?
how did 2O1O begin for her ?
yea i know . . its crazy .
something just happened and i could blog for days on end but its too much pain behind it
so for the new readers go to my july section and read : & i dont wanna blog about it anymore
go to august and read :big brother
these are my longest blogs but to me my greatest blogs
also in july : dear kanye, and peacewestt

anyways,

What Niggas Want pt. 2

2009-12-14T23:08:00.000-08:00

fuck that shit in pt .1
a nigga is a dog .
& they want they own personal bitch . bitches .
a nigga wants a fuck buddy, a suck me up buddy,
all a nigga sees in you is a quick nut .
a nigga wants you to play wifey,
but aint finna take you out the single lady cult .
a nigga wants to fire up the bakery at night,
but have it closed during normal business hours .
a nigga wants attention & companionship
BUT NEVER commitment .
a nigga will whisper sweet nothings in your ear as youre about to sleep
but shit, wont even slide you a good morning ?!
niggas will spread your secrets like wildfire,
and leave you to put out the flames .
niggas wont respect your feelings,
they arent accustom to em .
niggas will always make you the hoe,
yet the hoe-action falls on them .
a nigga never gave a fuck,
he just came to fuck . remember that .
ion curr whatcha tryna say, gotta say ,wanna say
when a nigga can graduate from this trife ass behavior,
then you can question "What Men Want"
buhh-lee-dhat

Back to Being Me

2009-12-14T22:55:00.001-08:00

sooooo . . when i was a freshman,
me and my girl vicky were too flippin raw
i ran kerr high school, she ran elsik ninth grade center
we went through boys like clothes . we werent hoes, but we knew niggas .
we both had a idgaf attitude and got repsect .
NOW, ive always been friendly .
my smile . my handwaves .my hugs . my whole persona .
back then i still ran shhiit .
but when you give your heart to the wrong guy,
it can really crush you .
and it did .
so like now, me and vicky finna be us again .
just straight hood bitches .
personally, fuckk niggas, get money [$$$]
it makes me cum more anyways ;)
its crazy how the opposite sex has basically hindered me
but im back to basics, like christina aguillera's comeback album .
fuck wit it .
aghhhh & bitches always thinkin i cant fight, wont fight
cuz im too hype on be happy .
ohhhhhhhhh nooo .
this new jack city my nigga .
i dont even feel like im losing myself,
because where im from, peace and friendly go hand in hand .
i feel like im regaining an element that i truly am missing .
its just better this way, i promise .
well im done, im good now, i just needed to vent .
peace ahhhhht (:

What Niggas Want

2009-12-14T22:38:00.000-08:00

its quite apparent i'll never know .
but i know now its not sex .
ive pledged my virginity to three niggas thus far,
& im still a virgin . & im not ugly .
so its obvious it wasnt that they were in it
to hit and quit, and its obvious they werent in it for commitment,
i guess they were just 'having fun' .
ive been used and re-used, and after all that im drained .
im tired of puttin my heart, my fckin everything into time-teasers
im tired of degrading myself for niggas, who will gladly upgrade a hoe in my place
this aint no complaint ass blog
this a thank you blog . i promise .
because of you, i can finally be me again .
ive wasted so much life, tryna please everybody else,
that i NEVER pleased myself.
my goodness, im finna be one raw ass chick [cuz i aint no bitch]
i am soooooo fckin good, i PROMISE im sleepin wit megan !
well yea, its like that . .
peace ahhhhht

One Hunnittttt

2009-11-28T20:31:00.001-08:00

ive finally reached one hundred posts
yipppppyyy ! lol, took me long enough
but blogger, its been hella cool hangin withchu
complaining bout my life and everything, sharing bout my life and everything
i actually see my growths and strengths AND weaknesses , but HEYYY !
thats life ;p
i feel like a better person because im doin good wit life
as of now atleast . and im keeeping good people around me
not shitty ass ass holes :)
everyone i fucks wit, are the realest group of individuals ive ever encountered
so yea . .
til next time my cyber hoe
peace ahhhht

lmfto .

2009-11-24T16:44:00.000-08:00

that stands for laughing my fat titites off ..
hopefully us girls with no ass but mass tits, will adapt this lingo :)
ughh speaking off which, my left one is throbbing and idk why :[
i super cannot wait for thanksgiving .
menu ?
turkey, corn, cornbread, peace's famous cupcakes,
sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, stuffing, rice, soda,
fruit salad, some kinda pie, some nice pasta,
uhmmm and more conbread cuz i need the ass . lmfto !
peace ahhht .

bull-shitty ass people .

2009-11-22T12:56:00.000-08:00

i lost the will to live long ago .
that doesnt mean i would commit suicide,
though i have contemplated it, it means i wont exactly fight to live .
all my life, i felt like though my name was peace i had none .
for one, im not an ugly person, im not a hoe, im smart, im SWEET,
im all these great things, and it clicked in my head that there must be something wrong with me, when last week THREE PEOPLE asked me why i was single .
i couldnt answer them, since i be pondering the same shit .
i wont lie i do wear my heart on my fckin sleeve,
but to me aint nothin wrong with caring for someone,
it just sucks cuz niggas non want to be cared for . .
THEN, its like i have three brothers and im the only girl,
so my parents treat me like shiiiiiiit .
ive only been to one house party, two football games, and the first time i was ever allowed to go out with my friends to the mall was november 28, 2008 .
im sixteen, and im not allowed to FREELY paint my nails .
just about everywhere i go, i sneak to .
my mom told me "im not allowed to be a girl in america " . .
wtf . that made me feel like she's blaming God for giving her a female child
like i was the mistake that she always regretted .
and i hope i wont turn into one of those girls that goes crazy in college . .
cuz we know what a pretty face with low self-esteem can yield,
moreover, its gotten to the point where i dont even ask to go places cuz i already know the answer . this is why im such a paranoid individual . this is why my fear of rejection got soo bad, that i cried thinking bout what if he rejected me . .
needless to say, i get no respect from any of my family members, much less my "best" friends .
everything has seemed ot work against me so far, so im praying i trade places with the well and happy .
but as for now ill just continue to blame all the bull-shitty ass people in my life

i fucked up and i know it g, i guess its bittersweet poetry .

2009-11-15T11:42:00.000-08:00

fuckkkkk mannnn .
i done fucked up, not as bad as last year, but still pretty horrific .
i am like madd ashamed of myself,
cuz ive made this mistake all too much, its like im not even learning ?
atop that, its with the same person .
mannn oh mannnn . this fckin sucks .
how i keep missing the same question when i study like crazy ?
& we out .

Vroooom !

2009-11-14T13:36:00.000-08:00

mann i can drive :D
i had a drive time yesterday and when it was my turn
i was driving at 5:55 pm ! meaning pitch dark !
AND i was pushing 47 mph in a 45 speed limit
aint i beastyyyyy (:
& then my mother lemme drive home from chruch at 5 in the morning !
ughhh im on some fly shit right now lol
peace in, peace out

Mixtape Madness .

2009-11-14T13:32:00.000-08:00

right about now at Hastings high school
all anyone does is die over no ceilings
which was alright but maybe im too un-black to understand its greatness
and i think i can do a wayyyy better job
okay well not like shit but i can drop a couple turds
which would be amazing considering its ME !
lol and since imma call it "Peace to the West"
alotta SWAT niggas gon wanna hop on .
mann i swear imma controversial don :D
well that was my announcement
&& we outttt .

housewife <3

2009-11-12T19:12:00.000-08:00

the classes ive taken this year have really transformed me
i can make flower arrangements, i can bake like no other, i make my own jewlery, i clean, and peace luv tha keeeeeds . lol .
& im soo submissive it only but makes sense to be a housewife
i think itd be cute

all white bricks .

2009-11-12T19:04:00.000-08:00

the title holds no real significance,
im just really into the song and have decided to slap it everywhere today
even though noone blogs/reads/comments/follows anymore
i still apologize for not blogging .
ive noticed alot of things .
infact ive noticed, you notice more things when you stay quiet .
its amazing the number of thefts alone ive witnessed .
i notice body language, which is the biggest give-a-way EVER .
ive noticed the people i use to call friend,
dont wanna be fucked wit,
and i wont force the fucking with .
ive noticed people come to church to show-out, stunt, & spark shit
instead of the more obvious goal of fellowship .
mannn i just be noticing man.
peace out, peace in .

age old story

2009-11-02T22:16:00.000-08:00

ughh so theres this guy .
and im feelin him megatron hard .
but as bold and outgoing as i am,
when it comes to this i have no game lmfao
i stammmer, shake, and my left eye tears up . lol
i cant even have a convo about him without freezing up
ughhh . words cant express how i like him,
and really it happened sooo super fast that im not sure why,
but its evident that i do .
im deathly afraid of rejection, so im just playin it low key
eeek ! any tips, hints, advice, lay it on me cuhhh .
im out .

& there are some boys

2009-10-29T17:49:00.000-07:00

that make ya just wanna be there hoe for a day .
plain & simple as that .
peace ahttt cuhh .

Homecoming Dance .

2009-10-26T13:49:00.000-07:00

hastings freakin beat strake jesuit 28-24 !
we are the sorriest school in alief BUT yet the only school to win homecoming game
&& against one of the "rawest schools" ever
so of course the dance had to be legit .
i got my dress the smae day as the dance .
it was cute , cep it was an extra small .
and it didnt zip up all the way up, cuz i got boobs :D
i had a date and everything, he payed for my ticket, && we matched .
i rolled up a couple niggas, and got rolled up myself :D
i was super happy that 4 kanye songs were played before 1 lil wayne one . lol .
when golddigger came on i did a really loud scream and everyone circled me as i danced
lol no after party for me though, but it was still the perfect end to a perfect week
im out .

Homecoming Week

2009-10-26T13:36:00.000-07:00

heyyyy .
long time, no blog . i know right ?
aiight, so homecoming week consisted of :
nerd day, twin day, michael jackson day, super-hero day, & black out day .
as you know i beasted . in fact i crashed that week sooo hard
they changed "homecoming week" to "peace done murked everybody week" :D

808s&Winter

2009-10-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

last winter was really terrible for me .
i was always mad or sad, or a combination of the two
then kanye drops 8O8s&Heartbreak,
and thats the only thing i can link to my winter experience of O8
& now that its gettin colder in houston,
my body wants to cry
its like i need to, because i was so use to it .
but i find myself happy . . still jamming 8O8s cuz thats what im use to
ehh . . im an odd one .

I could spend my whole life, good will hunting, only good thats gon come is that its good when he's cumming .

2009-10-07T12:43:00.000-07:00

Fuck man !
i sometimes wish sex wasnt as good as it was,
only because thats all a nigga ever wants .
NOBODY wants to do relationships, they just wanna smash bro .
and its gettin to me, only because im a horny adolescent,
not a hoe .
and if im doing more than kissing with anybody,
i'd hope that theyd be my boyfriend .
but the excuses we gettin lately is "chill we're only in highschool"
mannng, there was an eight year old king !
you mean to tell me men can run a country as a child,
but not start a relationship at sixteen . smh .
im disgusted .
peace out .

Nope .

2009-09-24T15:44:00.000-07:00

Nahh, I didnt win
Yess I'm pissed as fudge cubes .
I BAKED FIVE CAKES .
That was $9.O6 that could've been put to better use .
Because of the recession, both my people gotta work two jobs now,
and here I am wasting electricity to bake cakes for needy bastards .
Out of the goodness of my heart, I shared.
I shared the cake with everybody that asked, ESPECIALLY the juniors,
who had promised to vote, so it wouldnt be seen as bribery .
And it just angered me to hear "Treasurer . . Jennifer"
And not PEACE !
Like bitch, you could locate me in that big ass school for a cake square, which was mighty good if i do say so myself, but not the LARGE flaming voting poll in plain view ?! Realllly ?
I put my heart into that fuckin election .
Everything was me .
Them dope ass posters PEACE made,
The cake PEACE made,
The Slogans, The Advertisement, me, me , me !
I did me .
So for the fact that I was viewed as the biggest threat, I gotta give it to myself . It would have just made this year and the ending alot better to have won, and to have seen the asians mad as fuck, especially jennifer .
BUT, and mark my mother flipping words, I know I would have made a better selection .
When nothing is done, when elsik is still a rawer school, when we're sitting around eating chips and drinking capri sun with our AP as the DJ of our prom, just know you coulda had me . My campaign alone proved my determination to any project, so I think I'll just power that to a raw school like elsik . Call me a fuckin traitor, but heyy yall betrayed me . "Fuck you pussy ass hastings you should do you " lol .
I signed up last monday to be apart of their student council, we got meetings every other tuesdays i believe :)
Maybe I am a sore loser ; call me Baby Kanye .
But much love, to all that supported .
Peace out .

twenty-four to greatness, im that close . .

2009-09-22T21:04:00.000-07:00

mannnn i dont even know why im tryna front like im confident
im worried ; all i can do is sit and wait and pray and talk to baby <3
ughhhh i super wanna win ! all the time, effort, work i put in
sleepless nights, missing assignments, skipped meals
i wanna be treasurer sooo bad, but my words cant prove that
my determination is my aggrevation, cuz that would be my biggest downfall
idk if that makes any sense . but thats what worry does to you .
but mannn i still say it with faith "twenty-four hours to greatness, im that close"

fuck kelly clarkson

2009-09-20T22:55:00.000-07:00

"Dear Kanye,
What happened to you as a child?? Did you not get hugged enough?? Something must have happened to make you this way and I think we're all just curious as to what would make a grown man go on national television and make a talented artist, let alone teenager, feel like shit. I mean, I've seen you do some pretty shitty things, but you just keep amazing me with your tactless, asshole ways. It's absolutely fascinating how much I don't like you. I like everyone. I even like my asshole ex that cheated on me over you... I was actually nominated in the same category that Taylor won and I was excited for her...so why can't you be?? I'm not even mad at you for being an asshole...I just pity you because you're a sad human being.
On a side note, Beyonce has always been a class act and proved again tonight that she still is. Go TEXAS!!
Taylor Swift, you outsell him ....that's why he's bitter. You know I love your work! Keep it up girl!
KC"

--via AJ's bloggg--

Is Kelly Clarkson the stupidest bitch in the world ?! First of all you have no right to question anyone's childhood. Stupid ass white people are so fucked up, you think every issue starts from home, like yall . bullshit . Taylor Swift has never outsold Kanye West, you stupid useless one, maybe three hit-wonder . Swift outsells you ! You should hate HER . Cuz bitch, you lost to her ! Kelly, where were you at the award show, fuckin C -List celeb . Kany West was in the FIRST ROW ! His girlfriend is more famous than you ! The main reason why you pouting over this issue that concerns you not, is cuz you lack confidence in the works you create . You know you suck and you scared cuz you know Kanye wouldn't hesitate to tell you . You're calling this man tactless for his actions, but this letter proves you fall under the topicality as well . If what was right is always right, your response to that which concerns you NOT, is wrong . bitch .

Lastly, how the hell is Kanye sad, when you had to go on a game show to get discovered . stfu . You are forgotten by the public, whom of which are still waiting for another break away/miss independent . Kanye West is way more versatile, innovative, and above all important, so with that being said, step your fucking game up hoe .

baby .

2009-09-20T11:42:00.001-07:00

youre too good for me
but i stray away from peace
and every single night
you the only voice i wanna hear right 'fo i sleep
and i still let you in,
so why cant i let you stay ?
i guess im just an adolescent
only in it for the play
and yesterday when i called you baby,
all them feelings came flooding back
and i spread a little more
and turned over on my back
but we left it right there --
the emotions too strong
God knows you should be my man
but im afraid of doing you wrong
so what am i to do ?
scared of choosing, scared of losing
but i die to be happy
so what point, am i proving ?
until i accept you publically,
then ill continue to be a mess
for now you still my baby,
and im drowning in the stress .
baby .

Election Status . .

2009-09-18T15:16:00.000-07:00

so this whole week ive been going to sleep anywhere from 3 to 5:25 am
working on posters .
some show my efficient work, while other posters show you just how tired i was lol .
check em downnn :

everybody & my favorite

please tell me you get it, lol

they scratched off me glitter !

i dont like this one as much as everyone else does =/

this is legit to me

these were just a few . but mannnggg ive been working too hard on this campaign . people complaining alot about how many posters ive put up lol . but yeaaa thats all in God's hands. i know im the best gal for the job, but only YOU [the junior class] can decide that .
i do think i have a pretty good shot, but heyy lets not get cocky unless you plan suckin on it, right ? in which i dont lol

btw , i did draw all these pics. noone helped me with anything but taping =/

fuck you .

2009-09-17T05:03:00.000-07:00

this is to everyone who has stopped being there .
to everyone who stopped picking up my calls .
to everyone who forgot about me .
and also here's a thank you to match the fuck you,
cuz im doing exceptionally well, without your unexceptional ass .

absent from it all .

2009-09-14T21:43:00.000-07:00

my mom cut off my cell temporarily for three months,
and at first it was extreme havoc cuz i grew too attached to my phone too quick
but now i see ive sorta needed it .
without a phone, im in-out of of the social world .
you begin to realize who really cares, who never cared, and if you should care .
you learn to depend on yourself cuz noone is EVER there .
facebook became my best friend, and you and i, blogger, distant lovers .
myspace is now a thing in the past, and you'd be surprised how accompanying google can be .
being alone was my greatest fear cuz my thoughts are best when digested by others
when you're your self's biggest critic, pondering can be lethal
i wish i fueled my alone time to better use but hey its in the past
and i hope to remain in my present, because its one of life's many gifts
ive been reading great blogs as of late,
about the importance of relationships and its unwritten rules
its that type of foliage that leaves me content
& thats the way the cookie crumbles .

My favorite Villain .

2009-09-14T21:07:00.000-07:00

Today was disgusting .

Tagging West at the end of my name, seemed to have given everyone the right to question me on Kanye's antics of last night . Some was funny, and some really pissed me the fuck off . Cuz after awhile you get tired of defending someone, when everyone's against them, but i never once contorted my beliefs .

Guys KANYE WEST is a big kid . What grown man tags himself as a fictional bear, he made up ? Not only that but he's a true mastermind . Do you see how his 8 second comment is starting this controversial war. Spreading from Hollywood to the White House ?! What he did wasnt even that terrible, it was just unique .

Knowing his history, how he spoke out against Bush, he could have done alot worse to "shame" Taylor Swift . He wasn't exactly taking away from her performance, he was just stating fact . AND no, it wouldnt have been more effective to say it in an interview . Kanye hasnt held his tongue yet, so why start now ?

Yall all wanna take compassion for a country bumpkin, but what about the man who played the bad guy role ONCE AGAIN, so this unknown artist can finally be someone . I guarantee african americans with cable can remember her name now .

Someone said Kanye West is just a living statistic, but arent we all ? Kanye is only human . And he shouldnt be chastised for saying what he feels, regardless if its at the wrong times . And I've heard the well lets flip the script : what if someone did that while Kanye West won an award ? HA ! no one would ever dare, so big ups to Kanye for breaking barriers . He is one bold man, and that doesnt make him rude, or ignorant - but outspoken .

I feel like Ben Stiller in "Meet the Parents" when he messed up everything and Robert De Niro asked him to leave... That was Taylor's moment and I had no right in any way to take it from her. I am truly sorry."

And lastly, dont rest and assure that his action was because of the death of his mother . That happened nearly two years ago . Thatd be ignorant, and you people seem to hate ignorance . And MTV, Facebook, Twitter, and even the Family of Michael Jackson, have Kanye to thank for relieving the stress on the Michael Jackson passing, and giving the media a run for their stupidly spent money .

VMAs 2OO9

2009-09-13T23:30:00.000-07:00

this show was awesome !
wayy better than the much more advertised and hyped up BET Awards
where to begin ?
madonna did this awesome speech about michael jackson
then janet jackson and alot of other talented dancers came out and did a sexy memorable tribute .

ughh lady gag . she was killing us wit her crazy red carpet outfit manggg
but what stole the show, by far, was my man kanye west
EVERYBODY dying over what he did to taylor swift

guys this is kanye west !
he could have done ALOT worse,
to me, he actually helped this country bumpkin make headlines
so she has him to thank, cuz i guarantee she'll NEVER forget her first VMA .
on top of that, hands frickkin down singles ladies was better than what was even swift's song's title ?
even taylor was surprised she won !
then EVERYBODY dying over facebook, and i had to go defend my mann (:
but this is the same man that spoke out against a president,
why would he hold his tongue for a southern belle ?

[btw if you watch the pre-show they keep emphasizing taylor swift, so i think it was all planned]
later lady gaga proved to not be of God with her awkward bloody performance .

&& THEN pink shut it down . i never knew she was sooo athletic .

the whole time im like screamin for her in a disgusting african accent out of sheer habit
YESS beyonce performed single ladies again
AND IT WAS AMAZING
all the while wale & kid cudi were like house performers,
which was good cuz he got more cam time, right after lady gaga lol
NOVEMBER 3rdd
THEN jay-z finally shows up like last eight minutes before the show ends
and him and alicia's performance was well worth the wait
look out for empire state of mind
but ugly lil mama crashes their performance wit her dookie braids . .
ahaha jay z and alicia hugged each other and lil mama slowly faded into the audience
while they walked off together . smh

aghh then beyonce won an award for single ladies
& made taylor come out and re-do her speech
& the foolish girl didnt even thank beyonce but thanked a high school .
this is why kanye did what he did, he was tryna save us
but its kinda sad cuz i know he lost alotta fansss :(
DEFINITELY gonna see new moon & this is it when they hit theatres !
then lady gaga popped out with two more disgusting outfits
& i liked her til she was like "this is for God & the gays" NONSENSE !
but just watch the show . it was fi-yahhhh (:

A Long Way Gone .

2009-09-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

The best book I've read in three years .

Sadly, the first book I've read in three years .

It was about a boy who became a victim of the war in Sierra Leone .

He had spent years running from the war, and watched his family die in the process .

Ishmael, was later abducted and forced to defend his country in the war against the rebels .

He killed many men, women, and children, and through it all lost his innocence and sanity .

The thing that really stuck out to me, was this speech he gave .

He was talking about how he joined the war to avenge the death of his family, but that what if the families' of the people he has killed wanted to avenge their deaths, and how the whole war thing was the endless cycle of nothingness . .

I talked to my ex the other day, which I hoed,

and he told me he had made a girl he was talking to cry,

and that almost made me cry, cuz I feel like I'm to blame .

See I got hoed, so I sub-consciously hoed him, and now he hoed her .

Notice the cycle ? Who's to say she won't go on a hoeing spree of her own ?!

At the end of the book he told a story that they use to tell him when he was younger :

A hunter was going through a forest and saw a monkey. The monkey didnt move until the hunter was about to pull the trigger . The monkey held the apple he had been eating and said "If you shoot your mother will die, if you don't your father will die" and continued on eating his apple . At the end of the fable they'd ask the children what they would do . Everyone was afriad to answer . When Ishmael was seven years old, he had came up with an answer . He'd never tell his mom, but he had decided to kill the monkey, so no hunter would ever have to be faced with that type of dilemma .

Cute, huh ?

This doesnt mean stay with someone just so they wont hoe anyone else, cuz then youre hoeing yourself . But that we nedd to KILL THE MONKEYYYYY ! And end this disgusting epidemic of hoe action, and together we can go a long way .

-- Good night !

Do Something With Your Life .

2009-09-05T11:02:00.000-07:00

. . & thats just what i plan to do .
im running for my class treasury position
& im pretty stoked about it
cuz i spend most of life talkin shit & whining
bout how much i hate everything, why not do something i love ?
which is handling money .

i have like no competition,
its just jennifer dihn who was treasurer last year
but she aint do shit, she raised like $1OOO for our prom
but most of the effort is accredited to our AP & Sponsor, Mr. G

with me, i already found three sponsors
& im not even treasurer . . YET
i think i got it in the bag cuz im cool wit most all the football players,
the cheerleaders besides blatene got me,
half the band got me,
the cool asians got me,
the mexicans got me,
IF the black people would vote, they got me,
the people who dont care and would circle my name cuz it sounds coool [Peace West] got me
so its like all she has is the smart asians and maybe the volleyball team .

i cant wait for the whole election process
the posters maybe cupcakes .
i already got people throwin up the peace sign
& screaming my nameeee :D

on top of that
my school is doing a tribute to michael jackson : the wiz
& even though i aint audition for a lead part
im still pretty content with what i got .
i just forgot the names lmfao .

i also wanna try NHS English or something like that . .

i wanna do more stuff to get me out there
& yo get me busy, but it all comes in seasons .
so everybody please get like me,
& do something with your life (:

Treasure Chest .

2009-09-05T10:36:00.000-07:00

BOOBIES !
everybody loves them & everybody wants them .
but why wouldnt you ?
theyre fun to have & play with, if you're kinky, guy or girl .

as a young lass i use to YEARN getting my period .
to the ultimate freakin extreme . lol .
i use to read those dirty puberty books every night
thinking that thatd speed up the process .
WRONG . so when i finally got it,
i was watching who wants to be a millionaire lmfao .

then the next thing i know, i get booobs .
& it changed my life .
i never knew i had a chest til kay told me i did, august 3, 2OO7 .
[i remember everything]
then it became more evident when i took my first exposy pic on myspace :D

now its like all people see are my boobs .
i member coming down the stairs and some boy was bout to come up, eating nachos
and he saw me, i mean my chest, and missed his mouth and did a double take,
i member going through the hallways, and noone looking at my face
i member my aunt staring at my chest stammering "peace.. you've grown .. youre now a big girl.. you've grown"
i member innocently siting in spanish class and josh agboso screamed out "damn you got some big mo'fuckin titites"
lmfao . im not even that big, im a freakin C cup, and it only appears big cuz im small .
i wanna be a D cup .

but everyone will always want something else .
like rhymefest and kanye sang "and we just wanna lil more, no matter how much i get"
and they're right .
but yeaaa itd jsut amke me feel alot better if people looked at my face too, cuz im cute too lmfao .

happy birthday peace .

2009-08-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

thanks for the love .
the happy bdays .
the phone calls .
the facebook wall posts .
the very limited , very weak mysapce comments .
the money .
the earrings .
the bag .
the overall gifts .
the thoughts .
the happy wishes .
the longing to be at my dinner .
the randomness of it .
thank you .
i am now sixteen at peace .

week one .

2009-08-29T09:51:00.001-07:00

so school started .
monday .
was pretty cool .
i missed my bus ahaha so i caught the elsik bus .
but i can never ride it again cuz the driver knows im "trespassing" or something .
they effed my schedule so my classes were :
algebra 2, girls foundations of fitness, floral design at elsik, ap us history, spanish 2, ap english 3, and ap chemistry 2
i had math with hudhaifa :D
but ehhh i had it fixed later in the week .
they changed up the lunches so the sophomores eat in the south cafeteria
& they shove the juniors & seniors in the north
which would be okay if we had more than A and C lunch
idk why its not A and B .
& they put the football players in the annex :(
the sophomores had a fight in their cafe the first day . smh at their nonsense
as expected there are no cute boys,
i mean there's like five, but my theory is that everyone just watches their face a little bit more the first two weeks of school, and by the third you see their true ugly . lol .
i think i may want a boyfriend this year . but idk .
alief has definitely stepped their dressing game up .
but then again it is week one .
by thursday, they put me in jewlery .
i thought id just be putting beads on string, nahh , they have me sawing metal . lol .
also there's some lesbian stud in my class,
and my bad for being friendly,
but i think she may like me .
she kept tryna look me in my eyes and asking me to touch her dreads lmfao .
and all these people that were acting brand new before tryna get hugs frm ya girl lmao
it feels goood getting love .
i remember walking throughthe halls and not putting my hand down
from all the hand waves and hugs :D
and everybody recognizes me as peace west .
so basically i have made a name for myself thats stuck, in one weeek .
this year is pretty beast so far .
i actually like my teachers, and 5/7 love me too , so i gets the A's .
and in a few weeks, i'll gets the money :D
and you know i gets the boyss . ahahaha
im cute (:

Sometimes Sixteen Ain;t So Sweet .

2009-08-24T19:32:00.000-07:00

ughhh . so the invite text said 7:3O pm
but i aint get there til 9 pm , well noone really did .
so thats when it started .
& i had to roach for a ride,
ughh . it was cool though.
friends & loved ones & people i didnt know .
but it wasnt everything i hoped for .
no kanye didnt show :(
but our waiter named brian,
was very accommodating .
the type who gave me $2O, who bought my dinner, who bought me icecream , who hugged me =D
& he was pretty fine so all the girls were maddd ;)

ughhh, i finally got caught sneaking out my house .
i dont wanna go into detail cuz ill end up cursing the wrong people ,
uhm they took up my cell phone
which is super gay cuz my birthday is sunday !
and school started today, && my cellphone
is my smaller half .
they called me a prostitute, my mom told me

"go and sleep with all the men in the whole world . and that your breast, let them be pumping it like a pumper."

bushhh african .
but in all honesty throwing a dinner party behind their back wasnt worth it
cuz im suffering for maybe threeee months for a dinner that wasnt even threeee hours
still fun .
my hair looks a mess, but idk why, cuz its cute in real life.
& i naturally have a babys face so i hate how i look in make up :(
but yeaaaa :